the next time i say i DONT WANT to do something, you dont come fucking say i should do it unless you really got a good suggestion.

when i DONT WANT to cut my hair, you dont frigging make me cut and keep asking her to cut it short when i want it long.

IT MAKES NO FRIGGING SENSE TO CUT IT TO THE LENGTH IT WAS WHEN I WANT IT LONGER !

my fringe finally grew long enough to cover my eyes and not poke it. now because my mom wans it shorter, its poking my eyes again. and i got no frigging idea what to do with my hair. cause it doesn't covers my eyes, it doesn't look good swept to the side. all i wanted was to make my hair look better. if there's nothing better, DONT CUT IT FOR ME ! thanks ar aunty..

it was long enough to highlight. after the cut. everything is bad. even leaving it alone is bad.

so the next time i say i DONT WANT to do something, unless you are 100% sure that i will not regret doing it. otherwise, keep it to yourself ! thank you for your concern !

im the coolest asshole.

i know u will kill me when u see this post coz i know u always want ur post to got meaning and intellectual right. think i dont know always act one chim.

quote of the night from me:
"please treat ppl nicer next time and dont be tooo honest okeh"
do you think this blog makes any sense or inspires you in anyway? hmm. something for you to think about.

good nights asshole
3:09AM
-PIE

germaine foo hui fang is pestering me to blog and i shall type this blog to stop her from pestering me to blog. so practically im blogging for the sake of blogging. do you think this blog makes any sense or inspires you in anyway? hmm. something for you to think about.

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8:59PM (you are currently working)
28/3/09
-PIE

everyone's voicing out their dreams. its cool.

my mom wanna start a business too ! she got an idea. a concept. im gonna support her all the way man. i dont mind eating that for breakfast every morning. i just want to see your dream fufilled. its cool.

sometimes its just so comforting to know that someone actually have faith in you. trusting you to be able to get something done.

it sucks always getting reminded of how incompetent you are. ain't the first time im reminded at least.

dont start praising me or comforting me by telling me how good i am. i'll get big headed and lose everything. that will suck more. if you care, just take note of it. and have faith in someone. let him/her know once in a while. it helps alot.

Doing things not with your two hands but with your heart.
Saying things not from your mouth but from you heart.
Things will be done better. Words will sound nicer.

why do we do what we do? is the reason for what we do the right reason? or isit just because we felt its more comfortable to have it done that way.

i just heard that im actually getting a pay much lower than other staffs in other outlets when they are there for a shorter period of time compared to me. you may laugh at me and say i suck. cause i think so too ! why am i getting a pay lower than others when im here for so long? it only reflects one thing ! they are more capable than me. i have nothing to say for that because i haven't worked with their managers and i haven't seen them work. so i cant compare anything or come to any conclusion. but i think i should self-reflect. am i only worth $5/hour? or am i worth more?


i could have just confronted my other manager and asked about the pay. but i didn't. i chose to do some self-reflection. asking myself, am i really that incompetent? you tell me, am i really that incompetent?

considering the things i am able to accomplish. i believe im worth more. but considering my fluctuating performance. i doubt im actually worth any much more than $5/hour. this comes back to my confusion which has been haunting me for weeks already.

i can choose to just tender my resignation, give them two weeks notice and just disappear after two weeks. not hesitating to stay on. but. if i do that, my managers will be caught in a fix. not having sufficient staffs and having to maintain that standard of service. stress will just kill them. joleen is going back to china for a month. from april 13th to may 13th. they are terminating one of the full-timers because of her screwed up attitude. losing joleen for a month is so bad that they need to xfer another staff to train in breeks for a month. losing another full-timer will just cause them to be badly down-staffed. at least with me around. i can help a bit la.. i dont know....


right decisions = decision made after much thought and benefitting most people or conforms to certain standards? wants = decision made upon emotions and usually hurting people and never conformed to the certain standards?

right decisions are easy to make. but hard to follow through. unluckily, im those type of people who always starts things but hardly any follow through.

Wise people speak from experience. Wiser people, from experience, dont speak.

i aspire to be the wiser people. the cool charming men in movies. but they are that way because they've been through alot. me, without making much decisions so far. fearing of making wrong decisions. what experience can i talk about? i've only seen so lil. there's so much more to be seen. though i can actually perceive many things through my little brains. understanding that many things beyond other people's imagination is happening. still have no experience to talk about if i havent been in any of those situations.

i dont know. im confused. i dont know what i should be doing. argh.

i need a new job with better pay. preferably something to do with computer. any recommendations?

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
*I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on
Cause...

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

friends.
family.
love.
responsibility.

i dont think im in any position to talk about other people. im repeating the same mistakes. but i feel that because im doing it. i hope other people will not be like me and commit the same mistakes. im trying. i just resolved something that had been in my heart for about a year? came to a conclusion and accepted it. but who knows. things may change. she may become the girl of my dreams. i may decide to woo her again. we're both still young. too many variables to say for sure. only our programmer knows best. whats in store for us.

responsibility for one's actions. every decision made follows a consequence. cause and effect. stuck together. never separated before. like siamese. decide to leave it to someone else to do the dirty job. someone else, maybe a pregnant lady, has to do it. decide to do the dirty job. everyone gets more time for something else. you choose to be with this girl, you accept everything that follows. you decided not to be with the girl. you face the possibility of her rejecting you next time you wanna woo her. i'll take that responsibility. you have all the rights to reject me if i woo you again.

taking up your own responsibility is cool. i like.

since you dont have a tagboard, i'll tell you what i wanna tell you through my own blog. =pp

nothing we do screws up our lives unless it's things that have not been properly thought through before carried out. if we blindly follow our emotions, then of course our lives will be full of wrong decisions and regrets. and thats what i think you've been doing. you give in to your emotions too much. like deciding not to go out with certain someone then changing your mind after a few days. or deciding to go single then having doubts a few days later. i think they are all evidence of you giving into your emotions. and since you know the whole picture best, i believe you can do things that will help the whole situation.

siying told me one thing once, she said, right decisions are usually not the decisions that we like most and usually the ones we dislike. but we should choose it because its better not only for us but for people around us as well.

i dont like making the logically correct decisions all the time as well. im those kind who likes to give in to my emotions alot. and punching assholes or unreasonable customers. but i dont do it because i know it hurts more people than the whole situation called for. you giving in to your emotions and meeting jamie or kerlene and things goes out of hand. you know it. but you dont want to change anything and you are complaining that everything you do is screwing up your life. wake up. stop your own miseries. make the better choice.

i honestly would love to punch unreasonable customers in their faces to wake their big ideas up.

im pretty struggling with my thoughts. i dont know what i should do now. im pretty much caught in a jam.

Once, a general ordered three artists to draw a portrait of him. The general is blind in his left eye, having a very deep scar. He ordered the three artists to draw it and the one selected will be handsomely rewarded while the others will be executed.

The first artist drew a portrait of him as he was, blind in one eye. He was executed.

The second artist drew a portrait of him with two perfect eyes. He was executed.

The third artist drew a portrait of him facing a different direction, showing only his good eye. He was handsomely rewarded and his drawings were famous from then on.

moral of the story : everybody has their own good and bad sides. we should always try to portray the good side of us and not the bad.

to me : i just wanna be myself. you'll just see the side i wanna show you. good or bad. take it or leave it.

From http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


cool test. i like. quite accurate. what do you think?

"the sexiest man in the world is the man that can only satisfy one woman and be satisfied by that same one woman his entire life." - Elizabeth Tan Si Ying.

sounds cool. sounds good. i like.

my toe nail is fucking coming off. im removing it bit by bit. just abit more. bleeding quite a bit though. feels good..................

tot of a new direction to head on now. tot of being a jack of all trades and knowing enough of everything to hold conversations and awe people. quite cool to have a relationship with a girl where both of you do things to irritate each other but knowing where to draw the line and still love each other. in other words, doing things to spice up the relationship all the time. can you do it? one of the benefits of being a jack of all trades as well. =D

tonnes of things to buy. things like mixing bowls and whisks. wanna try some recipes. but dont have the equipments. i enjoy the luxury of having all the better equipments when doing things. so excited about starting a cafe but others seem nonchalent about it because its something that will happen about 7 years later. maybe we dont share the same dream. maybe.

current plans on hand. help my uncle find a graphics pro with the game. help fh fix his ah gong's company. get my dream done.

the cost of running a cafe is astronomical as well. things are not that easy. i'll work something out.

DISCRETION ADVISED *vulgar/emotional post*

like i said sm, we're only your friends. even the bestest friend cannot always be there to push you to take the other step. you have to fucking move on your own. if its hard for you, its hard for us as well. we did it, so can you.

just met up with some complications after work. one of my colleagues got into some relationship problems and her ex came to look for her. he got rough. all i can do is to try hold his arms down and ask him to chill. i felt fucking useless. i could have done more to stop him from hurting her further.

came to a conclusion while on the bus just now. i'll protect people around me from any form of violence. nobody, other than people whol resort to violence, should be a victim of violence. i swear i'll fucking elbow the next person who try to lay a finger on people around me.

为朋友可以两肋插刀。

to all grown-ups out there. fucking act your age and be more matured about things. regarding relationship problems, if the girl/guy fucking dont want you, you fucking let go. you dont fucking come wait for him/her at his/her workplace and kick up a din there. you're the fucking loser in the end. if a marriage doesn't work, two ways out. one, make it work. two, fucking get a divorce. you dont fucking let people around you suffer. if you fucking do, you fucking suck. fuck this man.. a 21 yr old girl can think so maturely and understand consequences, effects and things that should or should not be done. an 18 yr old kid is learning how to handle matters properly but examples around him disappoints him. fucked up ways of handling things. ways like "oh, he didn't respect my parents, why should i?" or "talk to her abit only she like want to quarrel, why should i talk to her?" FUCKED UP I TELL YOU. YOU TWO ARE FUCKED UP. IM SO GONNA FIND A TIME WHEN IM FREE TO GO TALK TO THE BOTH OF YOU ! ONE TO ONE ! YOU IRRITATING KUKUS !

*im in a dont-talk-stupid-things-to-me-or-i'll-fuck-you-upside-down-in-side-out-with-punches-kicks-and-vulgarities-kinda-mood*