i suck at vball. Thanks to my team mates, i get a bronze medal. =D im not proud to say i've won a 3rd place in the interclass volleyball but im proud to say my team won it. they are awesome. =D

wanted to blog about what i've heard and processed about love. but on 2nd thoughts, i shan't do that. because im still not matured enough to have a say on my views about love.

i've once let a lady down. i address her as a lady not because she's old but because she's matured. she's way way more matured than me and i dont deserve her. she loved me and i cant say i love her as much.

after letting her down, i start to realise my liking towards one of my colleague. she confessed her liking for me too. we got really close but because of my immaturity and impatience, i lost her. we were so close yet so far. things are looking better now though. shall see where we'll land.

a few months after our headless relationship, i met this girl who made me do alot of things i never would have done. not for any other girls. only her. i was confused. i know i like her but it feels different from the way i feel when i like other girls. i can do the sweetest things for her so naturally that i never doubted my actions when i do it. unlike when im with my colleague. when i was with my colleague, i always felt bad about the things i do because we have to keep things wrapped. yet with this girl, i just do what i want to do when i want to do it. like buying her supper when she randomly say she craves for fish soup beehoon at 3am and sending to her doorstep. i never had a single doubt in my heart nehs ! however, people around me are saying that she's not the one for me.

and until now, i have no more relationships with any girls le. right now, my colleague is asking me if i want to go to her hometown with her. she was supp to return to her hometown in may for a month. but i told her i was unable to make it. cause my vacation is from mid feb to mid april. and now she changed her leave to mid april to mid may. which i may be able to go ! wonder if its on deliberate or just coincidence =D

been trying to meet the girl again. however to no avail cause our times clashes. both of us are pretty occupied by things like school and friends. well, we'll see how it goes !

as for the lady whom i've let down. i have nothing more to say for anything i say now will be meaningless.

thanks eliz for enlightening me so much on so many things. nice to have a sister like you ! =D much loves.

tata.