靠人不如靠自己。
大不了自己懒惰就不做咯。

地点是城市某个角落
时间在午夜时刻
无聊的人常在这里出没
交换一种寂寞
我静静坐在你的身后
你似乎只想沉默
我猜我们的爱情已到尽头
无话可说
比争吵更折磨
不如就分手
放我一个人生活
请你双手不要再紧握
一个人我至少干净俐落
沦落就沦落
爱闯祸就闯祸
我也放你一个人生活
你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
又何苦还要继续迁就
我静静坐在你的身后
你似乎只想沉默
我猜我们的爱情已到尽头
无话可说
比争吵更折磨
不如就分手
放我一个人生活
请你双手不要再紧握
一个人我至少干净俐落
沦落就沦落
爱闯祸就闯祸
我也放你一个人生活
你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
就彼此放生留下活口
爱的时候
说过的承诺
爱过以后
就不要强求
从此分手
不必再回头
各自生活
曾经孤单加上孤单是爱火
燃烧过你和我
如今沉默加上沉默更沉默
再没有什么舍不得
放我一个人生活
请你双手不要再紧握
一个人我至少干净俐落
沦落就沦落
爱闯祸就闯祸
我也放你一个人生活
你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
就彼此放生
彼此留下活口

AGAIN .

you and zz de problems. i analyze everything for you swee swee. although starting i noob noob. but i still did all i can to help you see where you heading. now, you see where im heading. but you telling me clearly. you say until im courting death. yet your actions are showing me that you are letting me go court my own death.

indifference hurts.

you are a fucking noob.

you misintepretated something that meaningful.

you totally disappointed me.

i got owned.

not the first time.

but the most painful one.

because i trusted.

i believe he will also choose to do something.

because this is something really we have to take actions.

yet you chose to be indifferent.

you even have the cheek to tell me that you choose to be like the others who did nothing.

imagine you are the one.

who got betrayed by people whom you trust fully.

then isolated.

alone in the world facing all the problems.

he said this.

"When you totally have no control over your mind heart and body. When you get hurt, you will cave in and develop depression."

do you truly understand this statement.

you are facing a situation where someone has no control over her mind, heart AND body. she is getting hurt by people she trust. the worst kind of hurt.

HOW THE FUCK CAN YOU CHOOSE TO BE INDIFFERENT WHEN SHE IS YOUR FUCKING CLASSMATE GETTING HERSELF SO BADLY HURT RIGHT UNDER YOUR FUCKING NOSE ?!!!

you keep telling me to trust you.

now you're turning your back on me when i ask you to help me.

what you wan me to do?

i know you got your reasons.

i heard part of it.

its wrong. morally and in terms of integrity.

and you telling me that you choose to stick to it.

i really dont know what to do.

you wanna tell me?

fuck.

once again

i cant do anything

地点是城市某个角落
时间在午夜时刻
无聊的人常在这里出没
交换一种寂寞

我静静坐在你的身后

你似乎只想沉默

我猜我们的爱情已到尽头

无话可说

比争吵更折磨

不如就分手


放我一个人生活


请你双手不要再紧握


一个人我至少干净俐落


沦落就沦落


爱闯祸就闯祸


我也放你一个人生活


你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
又何苦还要继续迁就

就彼此放生留下活口
就彼此放生
彼此留下活口
爱的时候
说过的承诺
爱过以后
就不要强求
从此分手
不必再回头
各自生活
曾经孤单加上孤单是爱火
燃烧过你和我
如今沉默加上沉默更沉默
再没有什么舍不得

geng until like that.

when you meet people like me

you will want to die but you realise you cannot

because of your stuck up pride.

take your pick.

hug to your stuck up pride

and die when you meet people like me

or

put down your fucking pride

and live your life ttm.

your life. your call.

Someone said that you are not fit to sleep with pigs. I stuck up for the pigs.

Keep talking, someday you'll say something intelligent.

it just dawned on me that it has been quite some time since i'm myself.
have always been living to other people's expectations.
time to do something for myself because i want it.
its not about right or wrong.
but in this short life span that we have,
i think i should make myself feel best
while making people i care feel better.

wooooo ! after one month of tanking and sorts. back to slacking mode le !

time for some slacking action and saving money~~!!

first up on my to-get list is my skates ! my long awaited skates.. should be able to get them end of this month.

next up is my riding license !! most likely will be able to get my PDL soon.. probably this month as well.

after that is my motorbike !! gonna check out the prices then calculate the time needed to get it.

BUDGET AND CS FTW !!!

goodnightssweetdreamssleeptightdontletthebedbugsbite.

feels like shit.

feels lost.

a hiatus will help.

im a soft iron.

you emo emo with me, i emo emo with you.
you high with me, i high with you.
you act high with me, i try my best to act high with you.

wanted to blog. but realise no point blogging about it. so shall post this random post. as an update. :D